The one that couldn't make the time to see me when I was visiting her state?
The one that would never initiate a conversation with me? (It always had to be me asking her questions)
The one that stayed with me for a weekend but kept reminding me of everything she was missing out back home?
The one that always has to have everything better than me?
Do you remember one of my goals for this year was to shed the friendships that did not make me feel good about myself? And that I made the decision to let my friendship with this girl (who, by the way, I have known since I was 4) wither and die because I felt like I was doing all the work and that she did not value me? Do you remember me saying "Ok, I am really not going to start up a conversation with her again, she can come to me!"
Well, guess what?
It took nearly a year (or was it longer?)before she initiated a conversation with me (via msn - because I know how *hard* it is to do that - lol). But she finally did. Of course, it was to find out the gossip on my engagement (which I just put up on facebook) and also OF COURSE:
to tell me she was getting laser eye surgery and that she is moving to Vancouver next year.
It's lovely that she's doing that, and I think I do even feel sad she is leaving Australia - but it doesn't surprise me of the timing and the way she told me. Typical! Argh!
Sorry guys. I am just feeling a bit flat. Maybe a bit pissed off. Hmmmm...
do you all remember 'that friend' of mine?
August 17th, 2009 at 06:42 am
August 17th, 2009 at 12:37 pm 1250512652
Perhaps your friend is kind of like my odd friend I've blogged about, where they somehow feel insecure next to you and have to turn it into some kind of game of one-upsmanship.
I mean, I don't know why my friend feels like he has to do something like that. I really don't get it, because I liked him just fine when he didn't feel that way. But that's him, not me. So, I guess now we are left with what to do with that kind of "friend".
August 17th, 2009 at 03:02 pm 1250521375
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August 17th, 2009 at 11:54 pm 1250553250
Back in college she was all about subtly insulting me so that I got self-conscious about things I'd never even thought to worry about, and getting people she knew I liked to become interested in her instead by flirting wildly.
Yes, the bile rises in me when I see her name. But I can handle it on Facebook. If she wanted to hang out in person it would be a real problem.
So congratulations! It's great that she's moving far away, where the relationship will be much more manageable.
August 18th, 2009 at 12:05 am 1250553904
but seriously ceejay: that friend of yours sounds EXACTLY the same as mine, the way she does that on facebook. *sigh*
(oh, and she is already 3 hours away by plane - but another 20 or so wouldn't hurt
i just recalled a conversation we had once on msn. she greeted me by saying the usual pleasantries, and then asked me how my computer was going (i'd had it for a year - so it wasn't exactly news). then asked how much ram and hard drive it had. (i told her, 3gb ram, 250gb hard drive). so of course she had to go on to say she was so excited, her dad was buying her one from the US and shipping it here, so it would be cheaper apparently, and it had 4gb ram and 500gb hard drive. i mean, why the **** would i care? argh!